Last band concert...

Well.
Tonight was my last high school band concert, and who knows...maybe it was my last band concert ever.
It was amazing. We played so well...
I got really ridiculously emotional at the end, though, and I left rather quickly. I hope I don't regret that later.
I just went home and sat in my backyard and cried for a long time. I'm still kind of sniffling off and on. It's embarrassing, but whatever. It's really emotional.

Tonight when they were reading my senior bio and giving me my pin and picture, Tessmann hugged me and told me all of these nice things. He told me that I was one of his favorites. He said that I was kind of like one of his pets, like a teacher's special pet. It was a very Tessmann thing to say, and I almost started crying right then and there, but thankfully I was able to control myself.
I hate crying in public. I just don't do it.

Even if I continue to play in band or play music, it just won't be the same...
Tessmann is amazing, and there's just nothing like that band.
We've been together for so long..

That was the best concert ever...but it was extremely sad.
I'm going to be really emotional for the rest of the night, I just know it.