School is approaching, and I'm stressing out quite a lot.
There have been a lot of stressful things going on lately, though, and not all of them have to do with school.
I'm not going to get into major details here because I don't really want to or feel the need to, but my dad's been in the hospital for two weeks now. He was originally there to have surgery to remove the cancer, but there have been tons and tons of complications and daily setbacks. It's getting really tiring and it's ridiculously taxing...for everyone.
School starts very soon, though.
I've gotten almost all of my textbooks. I just have to get another math book and they'll be in on the 25th, so I'll go get it before going to my first class.
I'm worried about being around so many people that I don't know.
One good thing about high school was the high level of comfort. Sure, you probably hated most of the people you were around...but at least they were familiar faces, and at least you had someone you could work with in every class if the occasion arose.
I'll know a lot of people at NDSU. Or, at least, right now it seems like I know a good number of people. However, when you put it into perspective, there are over 13,000 students going there, and I don't even know 1,000 of them...or 500...or 250....and who says that the people I know will EVER have a class with me?
I'm just worried...very, very worried.
I don't know how I've managed to make so many friends over the years, since I'm really pathetic when it comes to meeting people.
Honestly, I've met about 1/2 to 3/4 of my friends through JCL, and somehow that has been relatively easy.
I'm going to feel so lost without the JCL or my Latin class to be there for me every day. It'll be so weird. Yeah, sure, I'm in SCL now, but it's totally different. I'm away from Volk, the friendly and familiar faces of my Latin class, and most of my friends from the JCL. It scares me. It really does.
I don't know how I'm going to make friends or meet people. Everything I have to do in college will be out of my comfort zone, and I'm just...worried. I'm worried that I won't do enough or meet enough people.
I have a very hard time making friends and meeting people if I don't have someone by my side to do the majority of the initial talking. That's just how I am.
Either I'm going to have to really step it up, or I'm just not going to bother and I'll HOPEFULLY just throw myself into my homework and studying.
I want to do really well in college.
I've already set forth a bunch of academic goals that I'd like to achieve.
I'm afraid of getting lazy. I'd like to think that paying for my education is enough to motivate me to work as hard as I can, but I still have a small sense of doubt.
I hope that I don't waste my time/money or anyone else's.
A lot of my classes are going to be challenging. The computer and math classes will be hard, and I'm hoping that I'll have enough of a drive to succeed and flourish.
I used to be a ridiculously crazy overachiever, and I'm hoping that I can go back to that. I'm hoping that I can stop procrastinating and just doing the bare minimum and just scraping by.
I really want to do well.
Some of these classes are really intimidating, though.
I just hope that I can do it.
I do have a passion for computers, and I'm hoping that this passion is strong enough.
If I end up changing my major -- which I don't want to do at this point -- it'll probably be to biology or psychology. I can't see myself doing anything but those or computers.
I just hope that I can handle computer science.
I start classes on the 25th. I'll have Computer Science, Pre-Calc, and Intro to Psychology.
I hope I can handle it.
4 comments:
College is going to be so much fun!!!! Finally, we get to take real classes about things we're interested in. That's the best. So many weird classes, haha. I don't know how we're expected to finish in four years.
As for people, I'm sure most people think that way, straight from the book perhaps? Haha. I'm kinda like that right now. Not really, though. College is like high school, but more friendly and mature. Nick said the one thing he noticed about it was how much nicer the people are and willing to branch themselves.
Just thinking about it, but some people come from out of state and that would suuuuck. So scary, haha.
It'll be good. Once you get used to it. The first day will probably be the worst with all the anticipation, at least for me. I'm just hoping I can sleep that night.
As for dorms. I think it's a good idea. My biggest set back would have been my roommate. I'd be worried about if they were loud, rude, different, etc. I wouldn't like the mystery, haha. Luckily I got Dezi.
Like I said, after the first day you'll probably feel SO much better. Until the it's all this nasty worried/nervous shit, haha.
I probably didn't help but whatevs! See ya at correge! XD
That's really long ^^
I forgot to mention.
I had heard about your dad from Laura I think and I'm so sorry. I hope everything works out. It's not something many people can say, I understand, so I'm sure it's rough. I'd be so depressed if it were to happen to one of my parents. Stressed is a good word, haha. Anyways, hope he gets what he needs and come home =].
You will be able to make friends just fine. That one "so... uh.. computers" guy is a good start and once the rest of the computer science nerds get past the fact that you are a girl they will be your friends too!
Oh Brie. I think that you will be just fine branching out and meeting people. Everyone else is probably just as nervous about it as you are. If worse really comes to worse, you do have your friends that are still in high school though. And I think you will ALWAYS have us.
And about Marty, I'm so sorry that there have been continuous setbacks with his health. Hopefully everything will turn out for the better and you all can relax a little bit. It isn't easy having family in the hospital. I hope you know that you can always come to your friends though. :)
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