Basically Done

I am basically done with high school.
I have one final (Latin, of course) and graduation to go through first, but I am basically done.
I'll never attend another day of regular school at North High.
It's very weird, but it hasn't even fully sunk in just yet.
The last day of school was so average. I don't know what I was expecting, but I was expecting it to feel a little different...but it really didn't.
It was just like any other day, but with people going, "Wow, this is my last [insert activity here] ever" all day long.

I'm not looking forward to my open house. I didn't even want to have one, but my parents wanted me to and I just felt obligated to. I'm not excited about it, though.
I hate when everything is about me. I don't like being the focus, the center of attention. It weirds me out. I despise having the spotlight.
I'm awkward enough at other people's open houses. I don't know how I'll be at mine. It's scary. =P

I'm really looking forward to this summer. =]

Senior Dinner

Ahh...the Latin class senior dinner at Volk's was always one of those epic events that was so far off the distance.
Well, we had it tonight and it was a lot of fun. :)
I loved reminiscing with everyone. The stories were great.
My class is awesome.
We're so close.
It's going to be so weird not having Latin anymore with Mr. Volk or with that class. =(
It's sad.
Tonight was really fun, though..
I enjoyed all of the fellowship, stories, and fun. :)
I don't like being older though.
It was more fun to look forward to these sorts of things..

Bonanzaville Extravaganza!

Today I went to Bonanzaville with Josh, Laura, Andrew, and Abby.
It was most excellent.
I love Bonanzaville! I always have.
The old houses and artifacts have always interested me...and I have a weird obsession with the iron lung.
It was great.
I had a really great day.
This weekend in general has just been really great so far, and I'm happy that we have Monday off and then only four days of school...and then I'm done. :] Wow. No finals! AHHH.

I've felt a little less stressed out lately.
I've been getting things accomplished.
School's almost over.
I know I'll find more things to stress out over, however...

I still feel like I've been annoying people, with one person particularly in mind.
It really upsets me.
He just doesn't seem that interested in me anymore, even though I'm supposedly one of his best friends.
We did have a really great/deep conversation on Monday -- and I know this because I saved one of the texts XD -- but that's been it for the past couple of weeks.
He never initiates conversations anymore unless he wants to send me a picture or something.
It's really kind of depressing.
=(
It makes me sad.

I need sleep.
I hardly got any last night because we woke up super early for Bonanzaville and I didn't get to bed until late.
As usual, I hardly had anything to say. xD

Blahhh

I've felt kind of weird again lately. I don't know why, I've just felt like all of my friends are sick of me or something. I'm afraid of getting on people's nerves.

Tonight was the last orchestra concert.
It was fine.
I didn't cry or anything. It wasn't nearly as emotional and/or touching as the band concert was.
Even if I were more attached to orchestra, I don't think I would've cried.
It was just kind of like any old concert.
It went well though.

My mom bought me this mini mouse that plugs into the USB port.
It's the cutest little thing ever.

I desperately need to get some sleep.

Last band concert...

Well.
Tonight was my last high school band concert, and who knows...maybe it was my last band concert ever.
It was amazing. We played so well...
I got really ridiculously emotional at the end, though, and I left rather quickly. I hope I don't regret that later.
I just went home and sat in my backyard and cried for a long time. I'm still kind of sniffling off and on. It's embarrassing, but whatever. It's really emotional.

Tonight when they were reading my senior bio and giving me my pin and picture, Tessmann hugged me and told me all of these nice things. He told me that I was one of his favorites. He said that I was kind of like one of his pets, like a teacher's special pet. It was a very Tessmann thing to say, and I almost started crying right then and there, but thankfully I was able to control myself.
I hate crying in public. I just don't do it.

Even if I continue to play in band or play music, it just won't be the same...
Tessmann is amazing, and there's just nothing like that band.
We've been together for so long..

That was the best concert ever...but it was extremely sad.
I'm going to be really emotional for the rest of the night, I just know it.

Late Nights

I like to stay up late...and sometimes I can't help how late I stay up because I simply can't sleep.
However, I always hate myself in the mornings.
Ugh.
I have to wake up at 6:30...in approximately 5 1/2 hours.
I have to wake up early three times this week for orchestra!

I had a good weekend.
On Friday I had the rest of Latin Days and then Josh, Laura, and I went to Angels & Demons.
On Saturday I relaxed a bit and hung out with Laura and Jared. We watched a sad movie and I was in a bad mood at the end of the night, which I am kind of embarrassed about now because I hate showing that around my friends.
On Sunday Laura and I went to Jocelyn's open house and then we hung out with Josh and Casey.
All in all it was good...except for Saturday late at night. Bah. I hate those random depressing moods.

Right now I'm just practicing my ridiculously hard and high flute parts for orchestra. The concert is on Thursday.
I hope I'm not keeping my parents up.

Two weeks left of school...
Wow.
This is it!

Exhausted

Latin Days was fun.
It made me really ridiculously excited for Nationals... I can't wait! =D
I love Latin events so much...
There's just something about Latin/JCL that makes my life so much better.

I missed the senior retreat today, but I'm okay with that.
Honestly, as I've said before, the only person there I would've enjoyed spending time with is Alec.
There are some other 'school friends' I like, but eh..
It doesn't sound like I missed anything too interesting.
It would've been kind of fun, I guess, but oh well.
I had more fun at Concordia.
I have a much deeper emotional attachment to JCL/Latin than to my grade and school, to be honest...
A lot of my friends are in other grades anyway, so a lot of them were there at Latin Days. =)

Just a couple weeks left... :)