Wasted spring break..

I kind of wasted my spring break by doing nothing, but I didn't feel like I was wasting it while it was happening. I only think of it as a waste now that I've stepped back and looked at it. Maybe it wasn't a waste then. It seems like a waste, but I enjoyed myself. I guess it doesn't really matter. It's practically over now.

I didn't do much. I hung out with people a few times, I went to two parties...but I mostly just sat around and watched movies.

I like the internet too much.

I really want it to be summer. I'm tired of school. I'm not really sure what I want. I'm okay with the school that I go to even though it was not my first choice. I think I just don't like college...period. I'm not into the college life, the big college experience. I don't want to be surrounded by people all of the time. I don't want to make a ton of new friends. I don't want to network. I just want to get it over with as swiftly as possible, but on the other hand....being out in the real world scares me too much, so I'm still clinging to school even if I'm not overly fond of it. There have been times lately, though, when I've really wanted to be a real adult with a real job and all of that. Sometimes the utter independence is appealing, but sometimes it really scares me too.

18 is a weird age. I always thought that being 12-14 was weird because it was the transition out of childhood, but I think that the transition into adulthood is even weirder.